Khloé Kardashian is reflecting on the attention she gained after shedding weight.
During Thursday’s episode of her Khloé In Wonderland podcast, the Good American founder opened up about life before and after she started her fitness journey:
“It’s interesting. What I do say is, the bigger I was, I was way more confident. I think because, like, what are going to say about me? I know all the things you’re going to say. I would have my days that I would feel low and all of that.”
She continued:
“When I started my fitness journey and, like, becoming in shape, I felt such a need that I had to keep this up, like even if it wasn’t for me. I felt like, ‘Well, I can’t get fat again, because everyone is expecting that to happen.’”
That’s so sad! And even more so the attention she started receiving afterwards — which in retrospect is everything it was cracked up to be:
“It was also a different type of attention I was now receiving. And then once I got a little older, I was like, ‘Wait, this is gross. I hated that that’s why I was getting more attention because I looked a certain way.”
She recalled the influx of attention feeling “exciting” before realizing it was “all so fake.”
“I think as long as you know that, and you’re like, ‘I know this is all smoke and mirrors. I know this is all so fake, and I’m not doing it for them, I need to make sure I’m doing this for me.’”
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But The Kardashians star makes sure to always have “check-ins” with herself:
“Not [that] this is good, but sort of when I have bad things happen in my life, I get to be really introverted and have these major self check-ins. And then realize, like, ‘Am I doing this for me? Am I doing this because I’m trying to impress somebody else or for society?’ … Whatever your answer is that you come to, I think when you realize, ‘Okay, I need to do what’s best for me,’ and you start doing that, the rest doesn’t really matter.”
And now at 40, the noise just doesn’t bother her as much because “with age comes wisdom.” She noted:
“You’re just like, ‘You don’t bother me the way you once did.’”
Also because she’s had YEARS in the spotlight to learn from what trolls say about her:
“I definitely, at first, for so many people, it’s really hard to endure all that noise, but it is just noise. I’ve learned, no matter what, I’m never going to make people happy because I was once bigger, I was thinner, and I had the same amount of people, but from different ends. When I lost weight, I was a traitor to the bigger community. I’m not myself. I’m not funny anymore. I’m not all the things that I still am at my core. I just aesthetically look a little different, or a lot different, whatever you want to say.”
She added:
“So once I really came to terms with that too … I’m never going to make everyone happy, but am I happy? Okay, cool.”
Khloé’s guest Whitney Simmons then brings up Khloé’s earlier comment about how she felt more confident when she was bigger, and the mom of two responds:
“I never thought I was fat until I got on TV and everyone told me how fat I was. And I was like, ‘Oh, me? I didn’t know I was fat. And what’s interesting is, looking back, I’m like, ‘Wait, I actually wasn’t as fat as even I convinced myself that I was.’ But it was a different time too, people were so thin during that time.”
That’s just so messed up… Poor Khloé has been through so much. One common criticism she’s received regards her access to resources and a healthy lifestyle:
“I always hear, ‘Oh, must be easy when you have a trainer’ or ‘must be easy when you have an at-home gym.’ Well, I didn’t for years. I got an at-home gym four years ago, but what about the years it took me to get here?”
She continued:
“Everyone wants an excuse. It wasn’t easy 15 years ago, but I didn’t use those excuses then. I was at 24 Hour Fitness. I was doing what I needed to do to get there. People will always have something to say.”
Now, she just focuses on trying to provide a healthy example of a relationship with her body for her daughter True:
“We don’t talk about our bodies and stuff like that — like not about the appearance of it — but I love that she sees me work out and be healthy. But not in an obsessive way. I just want her to know I’m active. It doesn’t even have to be in the gym. We run around or we’re outside, I like that.”
She added:
“I like her to see, like, I’m active because I’m healthy and I want to be strong, so I can always play with you and do whatever, but I like her to see me eat a pizza.”
It’s all about balance! You can hear more from her conversation (below):
Thoughts, Perezcious readers??
[Images via Khloé Kardashian/Instagram & WENN]
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